letting go

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I think that Bill's motivation in his mind was to be kind to me (by releasing me) as he knew his personal hell, guilt, and journey did not have a space fo me and knew it would be a long journey till he found his way through it.  In that it was all about him, he was also being kind to himself. 

Yes-the best way to show others the way is through a life well lived--I do not want revenge.  I have struggled to understand this event and am deciding I don't really need to .  I need to stay in the flow.  Develop myself--uncover, rediscover, refine the diamond inside.

Don't get me wrong--I struggle often with sad feelings about this loss, but am aslo working hard to feel what I know is true--that ife is good--and it's only what we make it--I think --writhing a new chapter in a book is exciting and scary at the same time--but the struggle is worth it.